[He didn't picture Jude having a problem like that. He was usually a lot more composed. But then... if it came out of a spat then maybe he wasn't thinking straight.]
Now might be a good time to think about that. Sure it doesn't have to be anything serious, but I don't think you're the type who'd be happy rushing into something like that casually.
[ jude nods, lips straightening into a thin line. he takes what alvin says seriously. ]
Yeah. I wouldn't mess around with something like this. It might not have happened how I wanted it to happen, but... it still happened, so I ended up confessing to everything. I don't even know how much sense I made.
... Even if it turns out he can't look at me the way I look at him, as long as we can still have the friendship we have now, I think I'll be okay.
[ the look on jude's face says otherwise. it'll... be hard. he understands that 9s needs to sort things through, but he still hates this waiting, this not knowing. ]
Normally I'd say that no one who actually says that means it, but you-- eh, I guess there's always an exception.
[Most people would grieve, be hurt... not be able to look at that person the same at least for a while. Jude-- well, he might actually be capable of forgiving someone on the spot and moving forward. It's amazing but also kind of scary.]
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Date: 2017-10-15 09:33 pm (UTC)A-Alvin! I'm not in love! When I said it was serious, I didn't mean that serious!
[ jude slumps over the table. rip jude mathis. ]
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Date: 2017-10-15 09:39 pm (UTC)[Okay he's teasing but also-- he is a little surprised.
Maybe he's rubbing off on Jude too.
yikes.]
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Date: 2017-10-15 09:45 pm (UTC)[ jude is guessing that promise expired as soon as he said he was feeling better. sigh. ]
Besides, I didn't kiss him on purpose. It was...
[ jude hums, deep in thought. how does he phrase this? ]
Kind of like I was running on autopilot. Like I didn't know what I was doing until I had done it.
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Date: 2017-10-15 10:11 pm (UTC)[He didn't picture Jude having a problem like that. He was usually a lot more composed. But then... if it came out of a spat then maybe he wasn't thinking straight.]
Now might be a good time to think about that. Sure it doesn't have to be anything serious, but I don't think you're the type who'd be happy rushing into something like that casually.
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Date: 2017-10-15 10:22 pm (UTC)Yeah. I wouldn't mess around with something like this. It might not have happened how I wanted it to happen, but... it still happened, so I ended up confessing to everything. I don't even know how much sense I made.
... Even if it turns out he can't look at me the way I look at him, as long as we can still have the friendship we have now, I think I'll be okay.
[ the look on jude's face says otherwise. it'll... be hard. he understands that 9s needs to sort things through, but he still hates this waiting, this not knowing. ]
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Date: 2017-10-25 11:07 pm (UTC)[Most people would grieve, be hurt... not be able to look at that person the same at least for a while. Jude-- well, he might actually be capable of forgiving someone on the spot and moving forward. It's amazing but also kind of scary.]
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Date: 2017-10-25 11:09 pm (UTC)Thanks, Alvin. I'm glad I decided to come forward and talk to you about this, after all.
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Date: 2017-10-25 11:33 pm (UTC)[Probably. At least that's what he's heard.]
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Date: 2017-10-25 11:35 pm (UTC)[ jude laughs. ]
Yeah. Of course. I'll let you know how things turn out.
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Date: 2017-10-25 11:40 pm (UTC)[He's just glad that Jude can laugh about something after how distressed he was earlier. All in all in this was a success.]
Then I'll look forward to the good news.